“You really have to get over yourself for your own sake,” my friend said.
I could have said ouch, but they made too much sense. I’ve said variations of the same to other folks when asked for my insight to their self-created confusion and here I was, thigh deep in my own bullshit.
Even as an astrologer, I’m not immune. I’ve got blocks and fears that keep me in tough spaces. When you’ve grown up identifying as intelligent, it’s frustrating when there’s a concept you’re not grasping—especially one that’s of your own creation.
One of the most difficult things for a human being to do is get out of their own way. We’re so scared of our own shadow that we forget that we made the damn thing.
There’s light and dark to everything. Positive and negative. It depends on where you fall on the spectrum and how you feel about it. Your perspective makes the difference between a situation being an inferno and a campfire.
Transformation—a Scorpio concept—can be gruesome or it can be beautiful. The dictionary says transformation is: a thorough or dramatic change in form or appearance. Scorpio also rules:
- sex
- rebirth
- destruction
- rebuilding things
- other people’s resources
- merging of assets
- taxes, inheritances, insurance
- death
Death is a transformation that requires you to leave your former self behind. You have technically died several times. You have been reborn even more. You will do this 1,000 times over.
You’re no longer the smart kid teased for being a goody two-shoes. You’re no longer an awkward teen with glasses and an orange bubble coat. You’re no longer that lost college student suffering through depression. You’re no longer that naive lover who neglects their intuition.
After surviving all of that, you’re being made new—accept it.
Hardest part of my transformation right now is making sure that I let go of the right things/people. It’s a cleansing period for me so it’s important to me that I preserve that which is most beneficial. So far, what’s working best is letting go and not turning around to see if it was a bad idea. I’m MAKING myself trust my decisions.
The hardest part of my transformation right now is realizing that I have closet insecurities when it comes to business. I’m a cancer and it would seem I’m shedding my shell for me to see me.
The hardest part of my transformation has been becoming more of me and who I’m supposed to be and not what has been expected of me. It’s going to ruffle some feathers but finally I’m out of f’s to give. :)